Sunday, November 20, 2011

A Moment to Brag

As I occasionally do, I want to take a minute tonight to brag on Jonny. I am particularly thankful tonight for Jonny as my spiritual leader. For those of you women friends out there who generally balk at the idea of your husband (or future husband) being your spiritual leader (ahem... Anch) let me encourage you that God knows pretty well what it would take for someone to be that for you. I once balked, too. But then I got Jonny.

This morning in church, we were singing the Revelation Song. If you're not familiar, this is a pretty powerful song - most of the lyrics are straight out of Revelation (hence the name). I also have an interesting history with this song, especially at funerals. It's linked to some pretty intense memories for me. As we sang it this morning, I felt moved to physically worship in some way. So I raised my hands - that's a pretty easy one, right?

But as I stood there with my hands raised, it didn't feel right. It occurred to me that it kind of felt like I should be kneeling. I immediately tried to rationalize that thought. "Is that Jesus? Should I really do that? Or was that just my mind wandering?" Yes, you let me teach your students how to hear God's voice. But I still question myself, too. "That's a little strange. There's not much room to kneel here. Would that be distracting? Is that too weird to do right now?"

As I was working through this train of thought I saw, out of the corner of my eye, my husband step to the side of his chair into the aisle and kneel. Here, I had been trying my best to rationalize my own prompting to kneel, and Jonny was one step ahead of me in obedience. I cried. I was humbled for my own lack of action, but so overcome with thankfulness for this man who listens when God speaks to him.

When we were first married, I mentioned to Jonny that I would follow him to the ends of the earth - quite literally. He was doubtful that I should be promising such a thing at all or putting that much faith in him. I thought about it for a minute and replied, "I know that you wouldn't pick up and move us, and someday our family, without really believing that God was leading you to. And if you felt that God was calling you strongly enough to ask me to go too, then I would."

And I grow more confident in this man and his walk with his God every day. Especially days like today. Love them both.


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