Thursday, October 01, 2009

Now that I have seen...

This past weekend, we headed to Doe River Gorge outside of Elizabethton, Tennessee for our annual fall camp. It was a great weekend together, and we had a blast (despite the POURING rain)!

Our very dynamic speaker, Chris Wheeler, spoke on the subject of orphans - both literal and metaphorical. It was a powerful spiritual lesson, as well as a strong call to tangible action and our students came home totally pumped to begin immediately making a difference in the lives of orphans around the world. It was a very cool thing to witness, and it's about all I can do to keep up with the dreams of my small group girls alone and trying to facilitate all their amazing ideas to raise funds and awareness. I will have to share more about this soon, because I have a feeling we will be feeling the impact of this weekend for a long time!

Last night, however, I was pondering one particular aspect of this weekend in my quiet time that struck me in a new-ish light. Over the weekend, Wheeler shared a paraphrase of Proverbs 24:12 (and I apologize that this isn't word-for-word - I've left my journal at home today, so this is as close as I can remember):

Now that we have heard the truth, we cannot pretend that we do not know. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know and holds us accountable to act.
He used this to refer to our new knowledge of the 147 million orphans in the world, and our new responsibility to act on it. It was definitely a powerful application - especially, I felt, for the middle school students in the group, who need a very concrete, tangible lesson. It was a conviction, a motivation, that ignited the group into action.

As I meditated on this verse last night, it suddenly struck me that this verse goes far beyond just the orphans in the world - although that is important. Suddenly, all the things I pretend I do not know can flooding to mind:
  • I can't find time to spend one-on-one with God every day; I'm too busy.
  • I can't give money to that charity; I have too many bills to pay.
  • I can't love that person; he's weird.
  • I can't go to the helpless; I have too much to do here.
  • I can't tell that person about Jesus; she might think I'm weird.
  • I can't praise God right now; I'm too sad or angry.
  • I can't trust my future is taken care of; I can't tell what it is.
We all could continue that list for a long time, couldn't we? As I sat last night, I realized all the commands that I have heard, but try to pretend I don't know. I hear and learn the things that God wants for my life, but I spend everyday desperately trying to convince myself that my own life is more important and I can just keep going on as I always have - pretending that nothing is new.

But I do know. I have seen. I have heard... And God knows it.

The reality is, there is no excuse to not live by God's will - He will hold us accountable to that. We're not fooling anyone but ourselves when we try to ignore those things or shove them to the back of our minds and hearts (James 1:22). I personally want to stand at my final judgment with no excuses. When God reviews my life, I want to be able to say truthfully, with no "buts," no regrets, no more missed opportunities:

"Yes. I knew."

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